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Sunday, February 20, 2011

The Shadow of my Existence

I'd like to think there are many dimensions to me...actually I know there are. I have many things that make Dara who she is. My way of thinking is creative, I'm friendly, I enjoy things that are different from many, I am different. I feel there's a shadow that follows me everywhere I go. Who is she? She is my inner-self. The one who knocks sense into me when I feel impulsive. She is my confidant, my advisor, my advocate. She never leaves my side. I could write a book about myself, but will I? If I did, where would I begin? I believe that we all have many sides to us, so many that it'll be hard to capture them all to fully express the true self.  I feel I am learning more about me each day. I am saying and thinking things I never knew lay quietly in my head. I surprise myself sometimes! I guess this is the beauty of growing up. You learn about yourself. Your shadow makes more of an appearance, and guides you to places you never knew existed.

Creating this blog is something I didn't know I could do. Seems simple, but in fact it's a huge step for me to share my inner-self to strangers. Why should anyone be interested in what I have to say? I'll never know the answer to that. That is not my concern. I just desire to be heard, and allow my emotions to come out and play. Since I love to talk, I enjoy being expressive. Writing allows me to be expressive in a way where I'm not saying much, but the impact is left. Through this blog, I am able to leave an impact on people I know personally, or those I never met. Either way, I am sharing my creativity with the world which makes me happy.

I am the shadow of my existence. At 29 years old, I have a lot more to learn. I am no where near knowing everything (if that is even possible), or educated enough to understand every theory, philosophy, methodology, psychology, or any "ology" of life. I am excited on this new "trail" I'm taking (thank you my friend for utilizing such a great word to best describe our many journeys). This trail of writing, promoting, taking pictures and videos, teaching, lesson planning, advocating, loving, hugging, smiling...all of these and so much more are part of my trail. I am proud of it. As for my shadow, she is there with me on this trail. I believe she will help me stay on the trail when I feel doubtful, sad, or frustrated. Who said this trail would be easy? My shadow will smile at me when I don't, and she will hug me when I'm alone. This path we share is something that will continue for many years to come. I look forward to the new possibilities and surprises that comes along the way.


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  2. In your shadow, I see a part of me that's walking along with you on your journey through life. Continue doing all that you do because success is just around the corner. I am so very proud of you and honored to be your mother. God bless you my dear daughter. :)

  3. I enjoyed this piece. It made me think not only of all the Kathys I have inside me right now, but all the Kathys I have been through the last 6 decades; mother, daughter, wife, in-law,teacher, principal, student, mentor, friend.......the more I type the more roles I remember. Thanks for reminding me of my "trails" :)