A new year, a new journey to embark on, welcome back to my corner. As January rolls in, I feel renewed and ready to experience a new year. I’m also curious to see what’s in stored for 2012, where will I go, what will I become, what new trails will this Creative Corner take? It’s exciting to think of the possibilities! Of course the most important thing I’m grateful for is to see another year. Life is so short and many weren’t fortunate to see this New Year. I’m one of the lucky ones. Usually, resolutions are made for the New Year, and as fast as they’re made, they’re broken. I rather say that I have goals instead of resolutions, because I know I will work hard to accomplish them. I have many goals and dreams, but first things first it’s time to walk again.
Countdown to Surgery: Pre-operation examinations
As you know, I’m having surgery for my left hip. It’s an outpatient surgery and won’t require me to be admitted into the hospital. However, the recovery time will depend on how my body takes the procedure along with physical therapy. It’s a long road ahead but I’m ready for it. I went to two pre-operation examinations. The doctors want to make sure I’m fully prepared for surgery, and since this is my first time it’s crucial everything is done right. The first exam was hard since it required balancing activities which is hard for me to do. The second exam was EKG, X-rays, and blood work. I’m thankful to the physical therapists, nurses, and doctors for their dedication in helping me get well. It’s been a 2-year journey in finding doctors who actually care about their work and their patients.
After my doctor’s appointment, I decided to take a walk. I knew I should’ve headed straight to the train station, but I wanted to soak in some sun and reflect. Of course I couldn’t start without having a cup of coffee first! I took a slow stroll on a busy Manhattan street. The sun was big and bright. I smiled knowing she was following me. I began to reflect on how far I’ve come in the past two years. I remembered my students and the classroom I adored. I remembered their smiles and dedication. I also remembered the message I told them when we found out classes was ending due to budget cuts. I said, “No matter what happens in the future, always be confident in yourself and remember to stand tall.” I must admit, I almost forgot that during the past year when I allowed people and my health woes to depress me. I now know I cannot retract on those words, I cannot let my students down, I can’t let myself down.
I reflected on my emotions and asked God to strengthen that. I have a big heart and love many, but I've learned that some people don’t deserve your love or your heart. I know I have to step back and be more observant. I’ve seen people’s true colors during this ordeal, and as much as it hurts to see I’m thankful of the revelation. A true friend is one who is there for you no matter what condition or situation you’re in. A true friend is honest and doesn’t deceive. A friend is just that, a friend. Someday I will have that, I have to be patient. Lastly, I reflected on my inner strength and God. I’m so grateful He has been my rock in handling medical staff, the ups and downs of tests, attitudes, prejudices, and persistence. I’m grateful He saw me through all of this. God is my best friend. I approached the train station. The walk seemed short even though I walked 7 blocks. I even learned a new route coming home. I never took this train home before. This is a big city. One may get lost getting to their destination, but you can always find your way back home.