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Thursday, November 3, 2011

Free-write

I honestly don't know where to begin as I write this blog post. Usually I have a mental outline of what it is I want to say, or some written words scribbled on a post-it I want to share. This time I have neither so I am going to do a free-write. Just in case some don't know what a free-write is, it's writing freely. There's no particular thought or concept, no formatting, no type of organization. Just writing from whatever comes to mind.

This should be fun!

So I haven't written in a week. That's what happens when one becomes depressed. I didn't know what to say or how to say it. I felt that words weren't coming to me, or my emotions were simply running away from them. Maybe it was my brain's way of saying, "Geez Dara, take a break already! Be one with yourself." However, I still couldn't come up with anything to say. There's so much crying you can do, I have a pocket full of them. There's so much worrying you can do, I have a box full of those. And there's so many "whys" you can ask, I have a closet full of those too. When I realized a week has gone by without posting here, it bothered me. I always like to write regularly. I guess it's my way of having a conversation with everyone reading this. Sometimes I imagine myself being a journalist and I have to write breaking news of Dara's life! Ha, like I'm that important!

Pain is a b****! That's the only way I can describe how it is; how it makes me feel is a different story. Yet, I've decided it was time to find ways to cope with it until I'm fully healed. Who would've thought a non-gamer like me would love the game Angry Birds? Talking to friends and family helps a lot too; they've been very supportive and I'm incredibly grateful for them. Most of all, I pray. I'm proud to be a believer, and I'm proud to say that I love God. He is my rock, He is everything. The year 2012 is rapidly approaching. I'm looking forward to it, because it's the one time I'm not planning for it. Every year I make plans in pursuing my goals. This time I won't for two reasons. One, all the things I want to do are obtainable and not terribly difficult to accomplish. Secondly, I'm putting everything in God's hands. He will steer me in the right direction.

So with all that said there's only one thing left to do...

Thanks for reading everyone.

4 comments:

  1. Please continue, to pray, live, laugh, write and stay optimistic. Whatever you are going through, just know that this too shall pass. Obstacles are meant to be overcome and challenges are meant to evolve into skills.

    Stay positive

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  2. Let go and let God. :)

    If God Answers Your Prayer, He is increasing your FAITH. If He Delays, He is increasing you PATIENCE. If He Doesnt Answer, He has Something BETTER for you. - Unknown

    Hold on Professor :) It's going to get better.
    Promise.

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  3. You are staying open to whatever God has in store for you. That is good. As I was telling my religion class students the other day....God always answers our prayers. Sometimes He says yes, sometimes He says no, and sometimes He says not now. It is hard when the answer is not the one we want. But it is wise to trust God and stay open to what ever He sends your way. Sounds like you are on the right track or is it "trail".

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